I have been feeling very "stretched" lately... like my time and attention are in too many places.
It has been very unsatisfying to be busy, yet lack any real sense of accomplishment.
You know that spinning wheel feeling? Yeah, recently I have felt like that too much and too often.
I have been doing much praying about priorities and what the Lord would have me do in this busy season I find myself in...
In a lot of ways, this year of home schooling is harder and busier than our first year.
Having a seventh grader doing a new math program, new science program, new literary assignments... etc. has required adjustments to our schedule, as well as a new level of stamina to accomplish all our requirements each day.
But the Lord is also doing things in my life outside of homeschooling.
(Yes, there is more to life than home school :)
The girls, Nana, and I are doing a study of the Book of Revelation.
Leisl and I have done the study before. But recently Brigitta asked to learn more about Revelation and Nana wanted to test the waters in a formal bible study.
I'm also thrilled to be doing a Precepts study of the Book of Hebrews with an amazing group of women on Monday nights.
In addition to our school studies and our bible studies, there is the ongoing, changing, and challenging adventure of helping two girls navigate their changing world and bodies and grow into godly women.
It would seem hormones and hearts can only be safely ministered to in the late hours of the night :)
I cherish this time and season of life, even if it does make a momma a little tired.
I've always had a rule that I cannot take on "outside" ministries if things at home aren't in order.
Although things have gotten better now that the bulk of DVDs are burnt, I still feel very behind in house work and I feel a lack of general sense of order in our home.
Actually, I feel like we've been running at Mach 5 since July and are only now coming into any sense of routine.
Leisl and I have talked at length how surprised we were at how much the movie took out of us emotionally.
We definitely don't regret that we did it, but we've had to learn so much the long way 'round.
And we are still learning and are still amazed at how God is blessing our meager efforts of time and talent.
Our local library called us to ask if they could include a short blurb about PITS in their Spring newsletter.
We said yes and were totally humbled when they asked for two copies to be donated to the library so patrons could check them out.
Imagine that, in this day, two copies of a movie, which unashamedly shares the gospel message, being invited to be included in a public library.
Isn't the Lord so good?
So, what does this have to do with all of you?
I'm sure you know where this is headed.
I need every drop of energy to school the kiddos and take care of my home.
My mind wants to share all the things we're learning and doing but somewhere between my brain and my fingers the momentum is lost.
As a result I've felt burdened by this blog and all that I'm not doing on it.
Karl and I both have peace and agreement that now would be a good time to step back, take a break, and re-evaluate what we are doing, why we do it, and whom we are doing it for.
Not just for blogging, but for all our activities.
I do hope to come back. The blogosphere has been a wonderful place for me. I've met some awesome women through Mishmash, both online and in person.
But I honestly don't know if I will.
I hope all of you know that I don't write this easily and that much thought and prayer have gone into this decision.
I just didn't want to leave you all hanging and wondering.
I will visit all of you when I can, but I can see myself spending more and more time away from the computer during this time of seeking the Lord.
To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:
A time to be born, And a time to die;
A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted;
A time to kill, And a time to heal;
A time to break down, And a time to build up;
A time to weep, And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, And a time to dance;
A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to gain, And a time to lose;
A time to keep, And a time to throw away;
A time to tear, And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;
A time to love, And a time to hate;
A time of war, And a time of peace.
What profit has the worker from that in which he labors?
I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.
I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives,
and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor--it [is] the gift of God.
know that whatever God does, It shall be forever...