Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Time to Batten Down the Hatches

I have been feeling very "stretched" lately... like my time and attention are in too many places.

It has been very unsatisfying to be busy, yet lack any real sense of accomplishment.

You know that spinning wheel feeling? Yeah, recently I have felt like that too much and too often.

I have been doing much praying about priorities and what the Lord would have me do in this busy season I find myself in...

In a lot of ways, this year of home schooling is harder and busier than our first year.

Having a seventh grader doing a new math program, new science program, new literary assignments... etc. has required adjustments to our schedule, as well as a new level of stamina to accomplish all our requirements each day.

But the Lord is also doing things in my life outside of homeschooling.
(Yes, there is more to life than home school :)

The girls, Nana, and I are doing a study of the Book of Revelation.

Leisl and I have done the study before. But recently Brigitta asked to learn more about Revelation and Nana wanted to test the waters in a formal bible study.

I'm also thrilled to be doing a Precepts study of the Book of Hebrews with an amazing group of women on Monday nights.

In addition to our school studies and our bible studies, there is the ongoing, changing, and challenging adventure of helping two girls navigate their changing world and bodies and grow into godly women.

It would seem hormones and hearts can only be safely ministered to in the late hours of the night :)

I cherish this time and season of life, even if it does make a momma a little tired.

I've always had a rule that I cannot take on "outside" ministries if things at home aren't in order.

Although things have gotten better now that the bulk of DVDs are burnt, I still feel very behind in house work and I feel a lack of general sense of order in our home.

Actually, I feel like we've been running at Mach 5 since July and are only now coming into any sense of routine.

Leisl and I have talked at length how surprised we were at how much the movie took out of us emotionally.

We definitely don't regret that we did it, but we've had to learn so much the long way 'round.

And we are still learning and are still amazed at how God is blessing our meager efforts of time and talent.

Our local library called us to ask if they could include a short blurb about PITS in their Spring newsletter.
We said yes and were totally humbled when they asked for two copies to be donated to the library so patrons could check them out.

Imagine that, in this day, two copies of a movie, which unashamedly shares the gospel message, being invited to be included in a public library.

Isn't the Lord so good?

So, what does this have to do with all of you?

I'm sure you know where this is headed.

I need every drop of energy to school the kiddos and take care of my home.

My mind wants to share all the things we're learning and doing but somewhere between my brain and my fingers the momentum is lost.

As a result I've felt burdened by this blog and all that I'm not doing on it.

Karl and I both have peace and agreement that now would be a good time to step back, take a break, and re-evaluate what we are doing, why we do it, and whom we are doing it for.
Not just for blogging, but for all our activities.

I do hope to come back. The blogosphere has been a wonderful place for me. I've met some awesome women through Mishmash, both online and in person.

But I honestly don't know if I will.

I hope all of you know that I don't write this easily and that much thought and prayer have gone into this decision.

I just didn't want to leave you all hanging and wondering.

I will visit all of you when I can, but I can see myself spending more and more time away from the computer during this time of seeking the Lord.

To everything there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:

A time to be born, And a time to die;
A time to plant, And a time to pluck what is planted;

A time to kill, And a time to heal;
A time to break down, And a time to build up;

A time to weep, And a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, And a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, And a time to gather stones;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to gain, And a time to lose;
A time to keep, And a time to throw away;

A time to tear, And a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, And a time to speak;

A time to love, And a time to hate;
A time of war, And a time of peace.

What profit has the worker from that in which he labors?

I have seen the God-given task with which the sons of men are to be occupied.

He has made everything beautiful in its time. Also He has put eternity in their hearts, except that no one can find out the work that God does from beginning to end.

I know that nothing is better for them than to rejoice, and to do good in their lives,

and also that every man should eat and drink and enjoy the good of all his labor--it [is] the gift of God.

know that whatever God does, It shall be forever...

Ecclesiastes 3:1-14a


MB said...

Really really sad you are leaving, but totally understand what you mean. You need to do what God is leading you to do. I will certainly miss you! I hope someday you come back, but if you never do...thank you for being such a wonderful influence for me. I will miss your blog and insights. Go with God. He has better plans anyway.

Anonymous said...

I know it's hard but you are making the right decision in putting God, family and school first. I made a similar decision about a year ago and while there are days when I still struggle I can honestly say God blessed that decision. If you ever would like to chat, send me a message :D

Love from a sister in Christ,

Lisa said...

I always look forward to your words popping up in my reader. You have blessed and encouraged me so many times. I will miss you and hope that someday it is right for you to return to this venue, but blessings to you as you follow the Lord and serve your family!

If you ever find yourself in this part of the country again, please let me know, I'd still love to meet you!

Lainie said...

Thank you so much... for your kind words and lovely hearts. Each of you have blessed me as I've been a part of little snippets of your lives and your passions.

Thank you for even taking time from your busy lives to visit here. What a joy and an adventure it has been.

Lisa.. we are doing some traveling in May... I'll let you know!

Alicen said...

You are so wise to take a step back & guard your family time. I know the Lord will bless you for this decision. No more blog means I'll have to visit with you more often in person to catch up with you all! :)

Please let me know when things slow down enough so we can get together again and visit/ pray again. I also need to bring the Adventures materials back to you.

In the meantime, may the Lord refresh, recharge, and give back to you the time that you put into Him and serving Him. You do so much for others, it's truly amazing just how much you've been able to juggle the recent years!

lots of hugs & love to you sweet friend. :)

- Kathi said...

I've been waiting and praying for this post.I knew it was coming long ago.Enjoy letting go.
- Kathi

Heather said...

Feel so similar here. Every time I tell myself that I will start linking to your homeschool link and blog more about what we're doing...something stops me -- the actual homeschooling! When I get a lot done in a day, truly, truly accomplishing things, generally I find its because I stay away from the computer. It's like my brain engages with my life in a different way. Anyway, thank you for sharing what you have. Thank you for this post. God bless your family!

MarshaMarshaMarsha said...

time. balance. priorities.

i am glad you are listening to God's call!

i'll miss you though and hope you will still stop by. gotta know how my lainie is doing!!!

love you much, my friend!

ps WOW on the library! to God be the glory!

Ann said...

sniff sniff...I even knew about the decision and yet reading it in black and white has brought a tear to my eye. You are a very good mama and have always had the Lord's best in mind and I just know that He will bless your socks off!!! I am so fortunate to get to see your bloggy posts acted out in REAL LIFE so I am thankful for that!!!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for all of the encouragement. I am going through something like that right now too. I do not spend alot of time at the computer, but am really struggling with getting school done and my house stuff too. I have been praying that the Lord will show me also what He would have me to do. I had even thought about (gasp) putting My Fathers World away for alittle while . I know it is not their fault. I LOVE it, but sometimes I just need things alittle more simple to focus on some heart stuff. You are doing the right thing if you feel this is what the Lord wants you to do. But, you already know that! Take care and I'll meet you someday in heaven.

Erna said...

The Lord has also directed me to turn toward home more over the past months (year?) and it has been a refreshing change to not feel like I must post on blogs or maintain certain blogs. I totally understand your decision and know that the Lord will direct your path as He sees fit. I like your commitment to keeping things at home in order before doing any outside ministry. I find there isn't much I can commit to outside the home during my children's younger years, homeschooling, and general family life with a shift-working husband. You will be missed but I totally understand and will still follow you in my reader for those times you feel led to post something. Many blessings to you and your family . . .

Anonymous said...

You will surely be missed by me and my kiddos. We've enjoyed all the info of what school offers us a little down the road. I have been very encouraged by you and I hope you find the peace and comfort that undoubtedly comes from following where God leads. May you enjoy your children and family in new ways!
In Him,
meagabby :)

Auntie said...

Enjoy the new journey that He is leading you to. You know where to find me.

Love ya!!!

Mrs. Bridget G. said...

Oh you are kidding! I will miss you. Although i haven't been much of the communication recently, you have always been in my prayers. Please keep in touch and email me cause i want to buy your movie too!
Huggies and Kissies always,

God's Girl said...

Oh, how I can relate to this post... spread to thin.

I am praying that the Lord would be the one to order my agenda.

Praying that God directs your steps.

All for Jesus,

MB said...

Question for ya! I am ordering the curriculum for next year which is R2R. However, my girls have already done the Apologia Astronomy book. Do you think it would be ok to use a different science book? How is the Apologia Astronomy used in R2R? We did this book before we ever did MFW curriculum, so I kind of want to do something different. My thought was since they didn't do the bird study stuff a few years ago like MFW does, they could do the Apologia Flying Creatures book. I love Apologia, but don't want to do the same stuff. What do you think? Did you like most of the books for this year? I really didn't like C2G Science this year so I ended up doing Apologia Botany which the girls love even though it was hard to do many of the projects because of the cold weather. Anyway, what do you think? Hope you are doing well too! God bless

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