Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Everlasting Light

I woke up feeling a little, um, *blehck* today.

It was overcast this morning and I was tired. Since I have had such a vitamin D deficiency in the past, the gray day was making me think about the dreary Oregon winter that lay ahead and it made me even more tired.

I came downstairs and noticed the Kitchen Journal out.

The Captain and I keep a notebook in the kitchen cabinet and we write each other notes and keep in touch with things we think about when the other isn't at home.

He has a very busy job so I don't usually call him during the day and he knows we're pretty busy here at home and will only call at lunchtime, if at all.

So, I noticed the Kitchen Journal was out and written in there was a note that "a doc he works with wrote a book and would I please read it and tell him what I think of it."

Sure, no prob!

Well, I looked at the book and it was on depression.

Here I am already feeling wiped out and bummed about the sun going bye-bye and now I gotta read a book about depression.

It was little.

I read it.

It was good in that I understood how depression "works" physically speaking a little better now.

But I have to tell you, I was even more bummed out after reading about people feeling depressed.

I didn't know what to do because I certainly didn't want to go through my day feeling like that.
I've been a mommy long enough to know that it's "the mommy" that sets the tone for the rest of the home.

If I showed up to our day in that condition and it would spread like wild fire.

So I sent myself back to my room and I grabbed my One Year Bible.

Thankfully I was so out of it I didn't know what day it was because I ended up reading the passages for September 30th instead of today, the 29th.

The Old Testament portion was from the Book of Isaiah and I was so... in awe of what I read I had to stop reading and start singing portions of it. I made it into a little song that I didn't want to stop singing.

The verses that held me were Isaiah 60:18-20

Violence shall no more be heard in thy land,
wasting nor destruction within thy borders;
but thou shalt call thy walls Salvation,
and thy gates Praise.

The sun shall be no more thy light by day;
neither for brightness shall the moon give light unto thee:
but the LORD shall be unto thee an everlasting light, and thy God thy glory.

Thy sun shall no more go down;
neither shall thy moon withdraw itself:
for the LORD shall be thine everlasting light,

and the days of thy mourning shall be ended.


I remembered that, very soon, I won't have to worry about cloudy days. The sun will no longer be my source of light. No more shadows and things unseen. No reduced visibility.

No fog. No haze. No glare.

Instead, we will live in His perfect light... His everlasting light.

I started to sing about this everlasting light and soon I was singing about His walls of Salvation and going through gates of Praise.

That led to singing about Jesus being the Light of the World.

It wasn't long before I realized I didn't feel tired any more.

My heart felt lighter, my shoulders finally relaxed and dropped from their "up at my ears" position. I was excited to start school with the kids.

It struck me why the Lord commands us to sing Praise to Him.

When we sing to Him, about Him, for Him-- we stop thinking about ourselves, our emotions, our circumstances. We are reminded that His grace is sufficient for us and that He is worthy, oh so worthy of praise.

But the thing that hit me the most was that when I do all the Word commands,
I am blessed.

I am blessed because He loves me (and you) that much. He designed us for Himself and then shows us how to come near and provided His Son to insure that we never have to be apart from Him--ever.

***

Dear Lord, Thank You for being our Everlasting Light that dispels every darkness. Thank You for providing strong walls of Salvation built with Your blood that we may come into Your presence through beautiful gates of Praise.

Thank You that you are coming soon to bring peace and healing to our broken land and our broken bodies.
Bless my brothers and sister in You Jesus and keep us watching, waiting and preparing for Your return.

Amen.

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5 comments:

Michelle said...

I've been in a stubborn rut this week not wanting to even open my Bible. It's like I need a crowbar to even open it. Everything within me is screaming NO. And then I have my husband mad at me like every second of the day and all I feel like doing is demanding my own way. I see the injustice of how others treat me and I want them to apologize or they will pay. I don't know how to get past it all the time. It's like a habit now to just react that way. I don't know how to choose differently...but yet I do. I just don't know how to take the first steps all the time. Thank you for posting this as it reminded me that its not about me and my issues. I live in MN so we get snow A LOT, and I can relate to the depression feeling with the weather because its fall right now but the weather is so cold who can enjoy it. I'm not looking forward to winter either. And yes, it will pass and things will change. Anyway, thanks for the reminder.

Suzanne said...

HI Lainie
I love this post and the beautiful reminders from scripture! We serve an awesome God who is so much bigger than us. Hope you have a wonderful day!

Kiva, Farmstead Lady said...

Amen!! Love how God used His word to minister to you during this time, hugs to you!!

Ann said...

I hear ya...although I LOVE Fall!!! I have been feeling very "sick" lately. It is a good reminder to take my vitamin D (D-Light in Christ who is D-Light) eheheheh Sorry feeling goofy tired. I am always trying to remind myself that whatever "supplement" I take is just that, a supplement and not my healing pill.( I always get upset when it doesn't fix me) It is a supplement to whatever the Lord is naturally doing in me.

Good Reminder Lain! Thank you:)
Love ya sis

Lainie said...

Michelle, {{{ big hug}}} Praying for you...

Thanks for the encouragement everyone-- you guys are such a blessing :)

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